date dos

Went well!............maybe?

We talked for 4 and a half hours..
Walks me to my car, mentions how cold it is, we hug, tighter and closer than the first date, but no kiss. I hugged him again and kinda stood there waiting, but still nothing..

What am I doing wrong?
He said he wants to see me again. I don't get it.

all smiles

I was worried for no reason....

Well maybe not no reason....I think we have all had a date that we thought went wonderfully, but then for some reason we never hear from the guy again.... 

I am happy to report that in this situation, that is not the case. Looks like I will have a 2nd date this Friday night. :) Happy girl. 

being a silly, silly girl.

What do you think...hmmm how to word this... for a second date how long does it take to be asked? Just plain curious.


Not trying to rush anything at all with this guy just hoping he really meant it when he said he wanted to hangout again.... I mean I think he did.... we had a good time. Literally stayed till the coffee shop closed.

I know it has only been 1 day since the date so I am not worried yet lol just curious and nervous really. I just really like this one. :)

Hopefully he asks me out again....sooner than later and I'm not sitting around for a month...

I need advice girls!!!

butterflies

I was nervous for no reason.  The date went wonderfully. He didn't kiss me, but it was kind of the awkward moment at the end when you aren't sure what to do? That's what happened. He did give me a hug and said he was really really glad we went out, and that he wants to again soon, dinner and a movie or  something like that.

It was just a coffee date, but he bought mine, pulled my chair for me, opened the doors, walked me to my car, and we talked till close.

Oh, hey there butterflies.

Date?

Is tomorrow.
His name is Mitch..

I don't know him very well, but he seems like such a nice guy, funny, and sweet.
He lives at home and takes care of his sickly mother and brother. That is something I really admire.
I hope to have a good story to tell you tomorrow!

Eeeek. So nervous.

turkey day

Well, Thanksgiving week was crazy. Working 13 hour days is not a lot of fun..
My Thanksgiving was nice though. Spent a lot of time with my brother watching football. Baked two pies, and made the stuffing. That was my contribution.

One more work day for me tomorrow then done for the week..

Oh, I have a date Sunday. :)

Thanksgiving Week

I will be crazy busy this week .

13 hour work days, everyday, except Thursday and Friday Even workin' on Saturday. :(
Lame.

Oh well, money in the bank is a good thing. Looking forward to family time Thursday though.

What are you thankful for ?

do you

Sometimes, I do really miss being in a relationship. I am kind of at that point where it's not my ex that  I miss so much, it's more just having someone..but being single isn't terrible. I have learned things about myself and discovered new passions, new things in life that I can focus on.

And you know what? Those things will never wake up one day and decide that they don't love me anymore.

My advice to single ladies, find projects, interests YOU love.

Do you.

The rest will fall in to place.

bliss

Friday Night.

Out in the City. Downtown.
Bright Lights, funny strangers, boys in cars, cold air stinging my face.

Laughter, friends, love. Bliss.

Memories we will be talking about for years to come.

Happy Girl. :)

Advice?

Well for starters, rocked this look today, what do you all think??

Also, I think I like someone, but it's one of those situations that would be awkward and could ruin everything if he found out. Hmmm. Plus, I honestly have no idea how he feels about me, well like I know he cares about me in a friend sense, but more? Not sure. How can you tell bloggers? Like...at his party in October, I was sick so I didn't stay long, but the whole time I was there, he would move so he was close to me, if not right next to me, and if I would sort of turn away from him, and talk to another friend, he would jump in and put himself in the conversation.....

Then he came to my birthday party as well, later that month, when he got off work, and again pretty much stayed with me, and he is a very social guy so he could have easily walked around. He didn't stay long either because he had work early again in the morning. Before he left, he told me he would be moving out to an apartment soon with a friend, and they would be having a party soon that I would be invited to...

I know some about body language, and when we are talking he will like touch his face and stuff, but I am a girl, and a scorpio so we over-think...EVERYTHING.

I have known him for forever, and it really is one of those things that friends is better than nothing, and I would be just fine with that.... I just wish I knew what was going on.....

Returning?

Hello All, It has been FOREVER since I have been on here. Truthfully I was just thinking about starting a new blog, I kinda forgot about this one. I think I will just pick up where I left off though. I started this blog when I was dating Kevin. Since then, we have broken up. No regrets though. I was with him for about 3 years. He was wrong, and did things, and said things, I was wrong and did things, and said things. He has a new girlfriend now...actually he is with my little brothers ex girlfriend. We all broke up close to the same time and they found each other I guess...I don't know.



 SO. I have just turned 22. Been single since late April, and you know what Bloggers? I am ok... I wasn't for awhile, but I am now. I'm ok again. I'm not angry anymore, I don't cry over him anymore...I'm ok. I have so many stories for all of you though. this may turn in to a single girl's guide for awhile, or at least a story of my life being single. We will see! But yes, after the lonnngggg time away, I am back. Tell your friends.

 So I just was looking at my blog, and sometime back I wrote a letter to a boy named Travis Mckee. June 26th, my friend Travis Mckee committed suicide... I hadn't talked to him in some-time, but maybe a week before it happened, we started talking again, we were both newly single, and just supporting each other. Also, I know a tattoo artist and was trying to help Travis get some cheap ink. I was going to text him one night about it, but I decided not to...because on Facebook I saw he had posted something sad, not a suicide threat at all, just some sad song/music video. He was such a strong boy, well man, I decided to give him space till the next day, I never got that chance. I am a nanny now, (worked Starbucks for awhile, but never again) anyways, I was at work, when the calls started coming. At first I thought it was a different Travis, but then people started to call me, with the "are you okay?" I stopped answering the phone, and went numb till I got to leave work. Travis shot himself. My support system was gone,my friend was gone. A boy I had the BIGGEST crush on my senior year...gone. No more bear hugs. I wish I hadn't decided to not text him that night. I can't help,but feel guilty. I can only hope now he sees how loved he was. My whole world went dark. Travis had his faults, but we all do. Overall, he was one of the sweetest and most caring people I have ever met. His candlelight vigil and his funeral were some of the hardest things to go through. 52 was Travis's football number back in his days at Pomona Senior High.

I know I can't be the only one who has lost someone this way. I really think it is something the world needs to talk about more. I feel him around me, I know he is watching over me, but yet, I miss him, every single day. Things were really dark for me for awhile, thankfully, in August, I got to travel out of the country for the very first time with my best friend Lindsay. I went to Italy and Greece. The most wonderful experience of my life. So many pictures!!!! I will include a few, but it was just what I needed. I went with a college tour group, and I made some life-long friends. Plus, I was totally crushin' on our tour guide Giordanno. So cute. I had never seen the ocean, been to a beach, none of that. I had the best food, I drank, I danced, I laughed, and I came back feeling so relieved, so at peace. One night, sitting on our balcony at a hotel in Delphi Greece, I was talking to Travis, and I saw a shooting star. That so far has been the single most beautiful moment of my life.
 

so those are just some pictures for now, maybe in time as I tell certain stories of that trip I will add more pictures, but I am so grateful that I had the opportunity to go.

So forgive my ramblings, I am excited to be back. Hope to hear from you all soon.

XoXo

Amanda